Eeek...I've applied for Uni!

I've bitten the bullet and applied to uni for next year. I'm still not 100% sure I'll even go ahead with it if I get in, maybe I'll defer it for a year. Either way, all things going to my plan, I will be at Uni within the next 2 years. Wow, scary AND exciting!

I've applied for Bachelor of Midwifery at Australian Catholic University, sounds religious and all but they promise me it's not! If I do get accepted I am going to negotiate going part time, which would mean 2 or 3 days on campus in Brisbane. Not completely happy with having to travel up there, but I'm sure it's doable. I'll just have to get my bum into gear and get some organisation happening.

I'm not even going to think about the logistics of it at the moment, the thought of putting the kids into care makes my stomach tumble. Grace would be fine, she's quite happy going off to school now, but my little boy just seems way to young to be offloaded to someone else. I was hoping to avoid this until he was 2, like I did was Grace. Oh well, we will see what happens. I have to be accepted first.

As I said it's not my first choice. I really want to get into the Bach of Mid at Griffith, but that course is still only a maybe for starting in 2010. So maybe I will defer ACU, then apply for Griffith in 2010 (if it goes ahead).

I really can't wait to get started though. This is what I definitely want to do, it has become my passion. The thought of eventually being a midwife and being able to share the experience of birth and babies with other families just makes me giddy with excitement. I imagine myself older, wiser and still catching babies.

Oh gosh, I am so excited about learning and fully immersing myself in midwifery. I haven't studied for ages so I know that it will be hard, but surely because it is something that I am passionate about I will be able to fumble my way through.

Becoming a midwife is what I have been dreaming about over the last few years, more since Xav's birth. A big influence on this has been Tracey, my amazing midwife. To hear her speak about midwifery with such passion is just contagious. I want to be helping women through their pregnancies, births and those first precious few weeks with their newborns.

So I guess now I just wait until January and see if they want me or not. It's a very competitive course to get into, so probably should prepare myself for not even getting in. Nah, I think I will just be blissfully naive, maybe even forgetting that I have applied and be pleasantly surprised when I get the call in January!