Nervous wait

My application is in and now its just the long, anxious wait.

After making the difficult decision last year, I'm praying hard that then wasn't my chance, and I blew it.

I've put my application in for Griffith. I'm telling everyone that's what I'm doing next year and trying to work out arrangements for the kids. Now, I just have to get in. As it's the first year for the course, they have NO idea what the op/selection rank is going to be, so I'm hoping my ranking of 87 is good enough. It all depends on how many people apply and how smart they are.

The stupid thing is, major offer round is on the 14th January and the first day starts on the 1st February. 2 weeks to try to organise kids, books, CPR, police check, immunisations and working with children check. I've gotten a start on the immunisations and been to the Dr for the scripts, just have to now work up the courage for the jabs. Grace is due for her 4 y/o ones soon, so I might have to put on my brave face and go with her. I'm hoping to get my CPR cert done soon too.

Gosh, I just hope that after telling everyone that I'm studying Midwifery next year, that I actually get a spot. I've avoided thinking too much about what I'll do if I don't get in, just hoping that the power of positive thinking actually works.

The course just sound so fabulous and how they have structured it should work perfectly for our family. It's 2 weeks of intensive 9-5pm at the uni, then the rest of the semester is done externally. From the second semester onwards, you do 2 shifts a week at the local public hospital. Sounds perfect.

I'm going to put Grace in for 2 days at Pre-school, then get my mil/friends to help out with Xav until he is 3 and old enough to go to the same school as Grace. I've roped Mum into coming up on holidays from the middle of Jan until I have finished the first week in Feb. Duane will take the next week off, so between them both I wont need extra care.

I'm hoping that Duane's work hours will work in our favour for the rest of the time, and I'll be able to study around them. I'm just so looking forward to sinking my teeth and brain into something exciting and challenging. I've been doing this SAHM gig for 4 years now, and although I love it and am so grateful, I'm starting to crave something more.

I just hope being a student midwife, then midwife, live up to the very high expectations that I have placed on them.

I also hope that I come out the other end of 3 years, still full of the same passion and trust that I have in birth, not corrupted in the way of over medicalising normal pregnancy/birth.

**Crap, crap, crap. I just called QTAC to double check that my application was all fine and although she couldn't tell me my exact selection rank, she did mention that one of the subjects I did for my diploma has come back as a fail. I do not do fail, so I know that its incorrect, but I just hope that I can get it sorted before the offers are being considered. It's only going to be a few points, but I'll be devastated if I loose out because of those. I've called the TAFE and know just waiting impatiently for someone to call me back. I'll harass until they fix it.