I have had the most exciting, thrilling, nervous, anxious and emotional week.
It's been fantastic and such a learning experience for me, but I am now absolutely exhausted and relieved that the intensity has subsided.
It's been such a roller coaster of events, but all went well and there is a beautiful little baby girl at the end. Also a Mother who is feeling fantastic, confidant, fulfilled and courageous.
I'm still yet to write up the huge story, but Nicole did end up going into labour and trying for her vbac. Unfortunately she did end up having an Emergency Cesarean, but she is so thrilled that she got to experience labour and the power within her body. There are so many reasons why this was important for her, but noticeably the biggest one now is that she has a story. Not just a retelling of a scheduled event like her first birth, she actually has a birth story full of pain, courage, strength and power. She has come away with the control, never once submitting for something she didn't want. She directed the journey from start to finish, and what a ride it was!
Now on to the cute part of all this - The gorgeous little baby girl.
Lucienne Bijou Lily - 9pd 12 oz's of squishy newborn goodness. She is absolutely adorable, and such a sweet alert little girl. If I was the baby stealing type - this is one I could easily take home and love. She is just perfect.

I was also lucky enough to spend last night with Lucie and Nicole at the hospital. Loic had to pick his Dad up from Brisbane airport and little Logie was needing some Daddy time. Of course I was overjoyed at getting to spend the night not only with a snuggly newborn baby, but also getting to chat to the Midwives when they got a chance. Little Lucie was a perfect slumber party companion, only waking every 2 hours to get drunk on Nicole's milk which was on it's way in.

I really wasn't prepared for the intensity of supporting someone mentally and physically through labour. The week up to Lucie's arrival was such an emotional roller coaster, and I have doubted whether I gave Nicole my absolute best. Hindsight is a wonderful thing, but it can also play havoc on or minds. I have been playing everything over and over in my head and I keep thinking of a million things that I could have done to help her more. I did think at the time that she was coping beautifully with the contractions and I was just supporting her as she found her own way to the end of each one. Maybe I should have ramped it up a bit then?, then maybe she wouldn't have lost focus or let fear creep in. Who knows, as I said hindsight is a crazy thing! I do know that I have learnt so much from this experience, and I'm sure this will be only of benefit to the next birth I am lucky enough to be involved in.
It was the very first birth that I had witnessed though, well other than my own. During labour communication seems to halt and instinct and intuition kicks in. It's really hard to judge if you are doing the right thing or not, or if there is something else that would be more beneficial.
It was an amazing experience though, one I would never want to give up. It's also cemented my passion, and confirmed that Midwifery is the life path that I want to take.